Savannah on top, Phoebe below
I have always had a hard time seeing who my new little ones looked like. Some would say that Savannah looks like my oldest, others would say Savannah has her own look.
I was looking at her one night when she was fast asleep wondering who she resembles. And then it came to me. I had been looking for an earthly resemblance forgetting, if possible, that she had another sibling. As soon as I cleared my eyes, I saw her. I saw Phoebe in Savannah's reflection.
It is a bittersweet thing to see Phoebe in her. In a great way, it is a blessing because I can get a sneak peek of what Phoebe will look like when I get to raise her in the next life. In another way, it makes my heart ache with the reminder that she isn't here.
I truly feel like Savannah, Phoebe, and Emily are all really good friends. I love to see Savvy look at Emily with eyes that can see heavenly things with the expression of: I love you! I missed you! Phoebe sends her love. I feel it. I can see it. And I ache to see the three together.
We are coming up on two years. Two years of many ups and downs since. I find myself again, like last year, not really wanting to think about the upcoming anniversary. I am grateful that my physical arms are not empty. That I can nurture another little spirit. I am grateful that I have been blessed with children. I am grateful for the reflection I see in Savannah's face. One of peace, love, contentment, and joy. I am grateful I still get to see my Phoebe on a daily basis. Even if it is by the means of a precious sister.
I was looking at her one night when she was fast asleep wondering who she resembles. And then it came to me. I had been looking for an earthly resemblance forgetting, if possible, that she had another sibling. As soon as I cleared my eyes, I saw her. I saw Phoebe in Savannah's reflection.
It is a bittersweet thing to see Phoebe in her. In a great way, it is a blessing because I can get a sneak peek of what Phoebe will look like when I get to raise her in the next life. In another way, it makes my heart ache with the reminder that she isn't here.
I truly feel like Savannah, Phoebe, and Emily are all really good friends. I love to see Savvy look at Emily with eyes that can see heavenly things with the expression of: I love you! I missed you! Phoebe sends her love. I feel it. I can see it. And I ache to see the three together.
We are coming up on two years. Two years of many ups and downs since. I find myself again, like last year, not really wanting to think about the upcoming anniversary. I am grateful that my physical arms are not empty. That I can nurture another little spirit. I am grateful that I have been blessed with children. I am grateful for the reflection I see in Savannah's face. One of peace, love, contentment, and joy. I am grateful I still get to see my Phoebe on a daily basis. Even if it is by the means of a precious sister.
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